That is how I felt reading this chapter.
“I’ve often based my self-worth on some second-rate inconsequential detail or assumption—like the way I looked, or the clique I fit into, or the way I measured up to a culturally set standard—to determine the type of woman I should be, to dictate the kinds of things I spent most of my time thinking about and majoring on.”
I spent the majority of my life basing my self-worth on what others thought. I had low self-esteem because I was more worried about what others thought of me. I would even become anxious wondering what people I didn’t know thought of me. I made numerous poor choices because I was trying to please other people.
According to 1 Peter 2:9-10, I am chosen, royal, holy, and God’s special person. Why did I waste so much of my life worrying about what other people thought instead of living with what God thought of me? Could it have been because I was not taught that God thought so highly of me? Was it because I was too busy basing my self-worth on what others thought that I did not hear God telling me these things? No matter what it was, it is time to change!
I commit to living my life as God calls me to live it. I know I will step on toes and be looked down upon by some people, but I’ve come to the place in my life where I am okay with that. I know that my life is more than what others say about me. I am special to God and that is what matters!